April 25, Wednesday

I'm tired, so no snappy title tonight.  I'm headed to bed. Let's see,

1. food was actually good today, I wanted something sweet, but didn't get it.  Instead I added some MIO sweet tea to my water.
2. I did the NEWO workout at lunch, then came back and read
3. PLUS a 15 minute walk around the block with my coworkers
4. Water over 120 oz.

I'm hurting a bit tonight, I think I overdid yesterday.  I'll be fine, but I may have to force myself to actually get my intervals tomorrow. I'll probably definitely keep it off the incline, my thighs are bothering me still.

Laterness & g'night.

April 24, Gaining Focus

I only dozed from about 3 am until my alarm went off at 6 this morning.  My head hurt so bad, but I didn't want to wake all the way up and put the effort into getting water, finding the ibuprofen and actually taking something.  So now I'm exhausted again.

Food... well, let's just say I found a new trail mix today that I can never buy again :( unless I figure out how to control my portions better.

However,

1. About 128 oz of water
2. 13 minutes of walking around the block with my coworkers PLUS
3. 17 minutes of walking on the treadmill - with 3 of those minutes being a jog at 4.5 mph and most of the time being a walk at 3.4 mph. total 1 mile
4. PLUS 6 sets of stairs because they're closing what used to be the corporate office before the merger, and everyone is moving into our building.

My legs were wobbly this afternoon.  Which only encouraged me to dip into the trail mix more.  It might have just been nuts and a bit of chocolate, but it was still too many calories for the day.

My goal tomorrow is to do at least the walk with my coworkers plus 5 minutes on the treadmill and 15 push-ups, crunches, lunges and superman lifts (or whatever you call them). - also called a 'No Excuses Work Out.'  Which I won't have... an excuse, that is.

 I'm going to finish doing the exercise I'm working on for my writing class, then head to bed.  It's already late.

Laterness & g'night.

April 23, Workin' 9 to 5

I accepted my job offer today.  There's gotta be a reason in there somewhere.  As long as I have work, I am going to be happy if I have to force myself into it lol.

My eyes are closing tonight.  I was talking to my Marine, and he started pausing more and more between responses.  It's daytime there, so I'm sure there's stuff going on.  At least I was able to hear from him, my heart is happy for a bit.  Or at least happier :)

let's see, food was actually decent today, so I'm going to say:

1. Food on plan
2. over 100 oz of water
3. a 10 - 15 minute walk

I can't keep my eyes open, so I'm headed to bed. Laterness & g'night.

April 22, Earth Day

Food wasn't so good today, and I'm paying for it now.

I'm also thinking that I need to figure out a different weigh-in day.  My weight on Thursday was 204 lbs.  Today it was 205.2 lbs.  There's no way I ate so much that I gained a lb between then and now. 

I'm embarrassed to say that I gained so much weight.  This week, I'm going to bring clothes to exercise in the basement every day this week.  I have to do something.

I didn't actually get any of my goals today.  Food wasn't great, because I let my weigh-in control my mood.  Water, well... when we're around the house, I hate drinking a lot of water, because his grandparents have complained about the amount of toilet paper we go through.  It's not like we use a lot at one time, but with 4 more people, and me drinking a lot of water, we are going to go through more than when the 2 of them lived here alone.

Exercise... I cleaned the bathroom, including mopping the floor on my hands and knees.  That took most of the afternoon, so I didn't get a chance to go out for a walk today.

A three time failure.  I have a plan for tomorrow, though I haven't figured out breakfast since we're almost out of anything other than sugar cereal.  I guess I'm just going to measure out 2 tbsp of peanut butter and put it on 1 slice of bread.  Unless I can talk the hubby into cooking me some eggs.

Anyway, it's getting late, and I have a bit of homework to do before bed.  Laterness & g'night.

April 21, Sun and Shade

Today was spent out in the sunshine, and I'm tired.  More than tired, ready for bed.

Church had a 'bike-a-thon' where I helped keep track of how many times the kids went around, while my kids played on the playground.  One of the other parents helped the girl ride around a few times, she's never done it without training wheels, and she didn't do that well at it.

Then we went to a BBQ downtown, more of a fundraiser, city-wide celebration.  Not only was there pulled pork sandwiches, but there were booths inside, and several inflatable playhouses outside.  One of the booths was Blue Star Mothers, and I signed my Marine up for a package from them, and I talked to them about coming by when they put the packages together this Thursday.  It was nice to talk to someone who has been there.  The only other one I know who has had kids in the Middle East is one of the women at work.

I got plenty of fresh air and exercise today.  I bought some shoes that I'm leaning toward returning as well. 

Now for yesterday... I'm still emotional about it, so bear with me. 

I got an email that I was going to have a meeting in my manager's office at 2.  The meeting was with the HR person for our building, and my manager was honest about it being a job offer.

Great.

When all was said and done, I wasn't offered the job I applied for, that I've done for the last 4 years.  Instead, I was offered a different job, they're 'expanding' the department. 

The job I have been doing, I'm not 'qualified' to do.  I don't have a little piece of paper from a college.  I may have a high IQ, I may have a photographic memory, but I don't have a degree, and don't live in Cincinnati, so I'm not qualified.  I am qualified to train the nutritionist they hired straight out of college, who has absolutely no experience in the food industry except what is learned in college.  She's supposed to learn everything in 2 weeks.  This is going to be a huge mess.  I just hope the company will continue to be able to process school foods after all is said and done.  It'll be worse if they mess up so bad that gets pulled, but my manager has tried to tell them they're making a mistake, and they're positive they're right, so it's out of our hands.

Hurt doesn't even begin to explain how I felt when I realized what had happened. My coworkers were urging me to apply for other companies, especially one that's moving to Oklahoma City this summer.  Never mind that I don't want to move to the city, or even near the city.

Then I got back to my desk, and got a call that I was declined for the mortgage that I applied for.  Yea, wonderful day.

Anyway, now that's out.  Food today wasn't bad, but was about 200 calories over, so I'm going to say no.

On the other hand

1. Water over 3 liters
2. exercise galore, running around, back and forth and everything

 I'm tired from everything and am going to bed early tonight.

Laterness & g'night.

April 20, Who Knows

Long day, and a lot happening that I'm not going to go into because it's so late.  I'll post it tomorrow.

1. Water ~3 liters
2. walk - 10 minutes or so not great
3. food - too much at lunch, but little at dinner, so i made up for it.

and I stayed away from the chocolate when I was upset at work.  I even had someone suggesting we get chocolate...

Anyway, it's late, I need to sleep and let the emotions calm down.

Laterness & g'night.

April 19, sleep

I fell asleep tonight when cleaning out my emails, so I'm headed to bed.

1) More than 3 liters of water
2) 15 minutes on the treadmill @ 3.3 mph
3) Food was good.

All in all, not a bad day, but staying on track was tough.

Laterness & g'night

April 18, Finding a Voice

Tonight I wrote my first article in 3 months.  I think I did okay, it was for someone who likes my work anyway.  So I found my voice again.  Hubby read what I wrote yesterday and started in on me as to why I let the writing go like I did. 

Tonight, he went in for 6:15, he'll do the same tomorrow.  Looks like he's getting more hours, so I'm not going to feel so bad about him giving up the paper route we took for a supplement to his income. 

I wore jeans to work, only to find out the VP of our department was going to be in.  Since we weren't sure if she was there for my 'face to face' interview, I called and had hubby bring me a pair of slacks and dress shoes.  Of course, he brought my heels, so my feet are killing me tonight.  I also skipped walking today because of everything going on.  I shouldn't have skipped it though.  Tomorrow I'll make up for it.

Turns out, she wasn't there for a 'face to face' interview.  Supposedly she was there to get everything together to offer me a job.  Only nothing was mentioned for that either.  It's getting frustrating.  Two companies interviewed me, one it's been more than a month since they said they were going to do a background check then offer me a job.  The other, just doesn't even get that far. 

Anyway, status for today:

1. 3 liters of water
2. food on plan (yay! it was hard today, I had to keep myself from getting food from the vending machine because I was so stressed over the job offer/no job offer thing)

Otherwise, one day at a time.

Laterness & g'night.

April 17, Roaring Like a Lion

I know I use my own method of capitalization for the post titles.  It matches everything else I do - all my own way.

Except one thing, I realized tonight.  I had said something when I got back here about being able to supplement our income with writing, and the grandmother shot it down.  So I haven't written much since.

This from the one who said that not writing would feel like I was losing part of myself. 

Guess that explains a lot of my attitude lately.  I'm working on fixing it.

What I did right today:

1. went for a 15 minute walk
2. drank 3 liters of water (100 oz)

Food was out of control again today, but I'm going to focus on it tomorrow.

Laterness & g'night

April 16, the Inner Monologue

Today my inner monologue has been going strong on things I can't control.  I really need to learn to redirect my thoughts when I get like that, because I can obsess, as many of my OOT friends know.  When I start obsessing, I tend toward depression, which is why I get so down all the time. 

The question remains, how do you learn to redirect your inner monologue?

We have almost enough saved for deposit on a place, if we can find one.  The other person who wants to buy the house we're looking at is more likely to be able to get the funding, and he wants to rent it out, so we may be able to live there anyway.  Depending on what he wants to charge for rent.  I can foresee it being twice the cost of the mortgage, which doesn't sound bad until you look at income vs. expenses. 

It all boils down to money, and lack of money.  I really need to focus on doing more about earning more.

Let's see, two outta 3 ain't bad, but it really could be better.  Food wasn't awful today, just about 200 calories more than I should have.  I was fine until dinner, I should have cut the meat portion in half.

otherwise:

1. over 3 liters of water
2. a 15 minute walk (and a Herbalife tea that's supposed to help burn 100 calories lol - I don't know that I believe it, but I like the taste, and someone else was treating)

I really need to do a bit of studying before bed.  Laterness & g'night.