When is vacation time yet?

I had an article to do, but I think I'm going to release it unless I can get it done before it gets too late.  I'm so tired I can barely keep my eyes open.  I finally decided to use one of Justin's heat patches (kinda like the Thermacare ones) as a heating pad on my lower abdomen.  I didn't pay all that much for the packages and I knew the heat would help my cramps.  Midol didn't touch them.  I really need to buy a real heating pad for times like this.  I had one of those ones that heats in the microwave, but it disappeared after my Marine borrowed it one time.  I didn't find it when I cleaned out his room after he left for boot camp.  There are a couple of other places I can look.

I wrote this earlier, and now don't have a child on my lap.  I'm going to write this article, it's time for me to get serious about preparing for when I move.  We are under a tornado watch right now, but it hasn't even started raining yet.  I'm watching one of the local channels that'll have an announcement if the weather gets worse.

I told my sister that even if I don't get approved for the job with my brother, I'll be there for her birthday in July.  I told her that if I don't have to be there by June 18, then I'll wait until the kittie girl is out of t-ball since she loves it so much.  No matter what, I'll be in Florida soon.

I did find my 'missing' post from last Wednesday in my drafts.  I don't know whether it'll show up as a post from today if I post it, so I'm just going to leave it.

Laterness & g'night.

I'm gonna keep on rollin', rollin'

Ugh. I'm getting so sick of eggs for breakfast and it's only been 3 days. Maybe getting some liquid eggs would help. Of course I'm getting even more sick of chocolate Carnation Instant Breakfast and sugar free fudgesicles.

And though I'm following the plan, my weight is up from Monday's weigh in. Of course, TOM has finally reared its head so that may be why.

Last night's game was entertaining. My kittie girl kept playing in the dirt when she was in the outfield. Lol

I have an errand to run at lunch so I guess I stop at home for lunch. Easier than trying to do it this morning...

Ending the evening with laughter

I still need to write at least one of those direct orders through Textbroker tonight, but my Marine called again tonight.  It was definitely more important to talk to him.  He's still down, but is feeling better than he did when he called a couple of weeks ago.  By the end of the call, he felt even better still.  That makes me happy, that I can talk to him and make him laugh.  I think it helps him to know that there are those of us around that care. 

I try not to tell him how much I miss him because he needs to be a grown up.  I might even be able to see him next month on my way to FL.  It means I get to meet his girlfriend, and she'd even get to meet the younger kids. 

The day went well otherwise.  I even got some walking outside while I was talking to my Marine... and he lectured me about quitting smoking.  LOL he knows me too well for being my son :)  I promised I'd quit by the time I move.  We talked some about how I regret that I was too heavy to do much with him, and I told him I've lost 45 lbs. 

All in all, a very good day.  Laterness & g'night.

Robin Williams - Gotta love him :)

I downloaded some Robin Williams comedy bits onto my MP3 player. I'm sure everyone is wondering why I'm laughing so hard.

Its kinda funny - every time I think I might drop out of the challenge, Justin convinces me to stay in. At least we're adding other food. It may take increasing my exercise to what its been to get my cycle back on track. With the much lower calorie intake I haven't felt up to doing as much exercise as I was doing.

People at work are aggravating me again. So damn impatient and jumping in before they know exactly what's going on.

I did get 2 direct orders through Textbroker. One customer really liked the last piece I wrote for their website, so they asked me to write the info for 2 more of their pages. That brought a smile to my face this morning. And last night I found that the copywriting job I'm interested in is still posted. Once I write both of those direct orders for Textbroker, I'll work more on my own site. I should be in the groove by then lol.

I may even try writing a short story for the Writer's digest competition. I have wanted to enter that for ages - since someone suggested it in a writing class I took in 2007. Maybe I'll just write down the dream I had the other night. It's not what I normally write unless I find a way to change it. Not that it's that hard to change any story to a sci/fantasy story LOL

I am hoping I hear from my brother today, even if its negative. If it is negative, I may wait until the end of June to move so the girl can finish t-ball. I hate pulling her out in the middle of the season. Their first game is tomorrow.

Anyway since its lunchtime, I think I'm going to work on my short story.

Sunday brings scratches on my legs

Well, not just Sunday.  More like the kittens bring scratches to my legs.  Last year, we couldn't afford to get out cat fixed, so we have 4 kittens.  This year, finances are MUCH better and she'll be fixed as soon as these are weaned. 

One of the kittens attacks my legs when I'm in the recliner.  Justin has been the object of her rather cruel affections lately since he was complaining that he never gets to sit in the recliner.  LOL it didn't change his mind about sitting here.

I had a pretty bad nightmare last night.  I'm not entirely sure what's up with that.  Dream interpretation websites say it means I'm getting over something or going through a tough time.  Or that I'm insecure about something.  Or that an aspect of my emotions has been cut off.  So obviously it can mean any number of things, but I had trouble getting back to sleep, and I was really upset even though I knew it was a dream.

The new phase has messed with my TOM and it looks like that's also affecting my weight loss.  I only lost 3 lbs this week, though I think once everything is straightened out, it'll end up that I lost more.  I may need to do some thinking though.  If it's messing with my cycle, it may be unhealthy for me to follow it.  Just because I got my doctor's okay doesn't mean it's the healthiest thing for me.  I'd feel more comfortable talking to one of the corporate dietitians.  Though they're no longer working as corporate dietitians, they are registered dietitians. 

Anyway, it's getting late and I've gotta start the early rising again.  Laterness & g'night.

The moment I wake up, before I put on my makeup, I say a little prayer for you

Just finished watching My Best Friend's Wedding.  It's one of my favorite movies because it reminds me of an old boyfriend.  He really hurt me when he broke up with me for someone else.  He said at the time that this movie reminded him of us, but he didn't think I'd like it because the main character didn't 'get the guy.'  Of course, then the person he married broke his heart and he called me crying.  I truly believe that we get out of life what we put into it.  I also believe in karma of some sort or another.  If you're not honest, you'll eventually be found out.  That's just life.  That's why God says leave revenge up to Him.

Official weigh in is tomorrow for me, though Allan wants the weights Monday.  I'm just going to give him tomorrow's weight and leave it at that.  Of course, it'll skew my results a bit for the first week, but it'll all work out over the course of the phase.

I got aggravated with something I noticed about Justin today.  I had to get some clothes so I have something to wear to work other than just jeans.  We were at Ross and I had picked out some pants/capris, half of which were on clearance to try to go easy on the money.  Justin said he wanted some shirts.  It wasn't that he doesn't need the clothes so much as it just seems like every time I get clothes, he has to get clothes.  He gets clothes when he really needs them, then when he's with me when I need them.  Of course, this means that my reward for losing 50 lbs is clothes, not the tattoo I wanted to get.  Maybe I'll make the tattoo my reward when I hit 75 lbs gone... of course I'll probably need clothes then too.  I do have 3 pairs of jeans that I never managed to get into the last time I was close to 200 lbs.  I have 3 more pairs of jeans/pants in my closet that are a size smaller.  I did figure out that I was a size bigger than I always said I was.  The jeans I put on this morning are a size 18.  The size 20's are big on me.  There's no way that I really wore a size 20, it had to have been a 22.  Otherwise the sizes just don't compute.

Anyway, Justin is watching Sons of Anarchy, and it just doesn't interest me so I'm headed to bed.

Laterness & g'night.

Is Food Network a bad idea?

I wasn't thinking tonight.  Turned on Food Network because I just wasn't in the mood to watch either of the 2 Criminal Minds episodes that were on (one was on ION and one on A&E).  Of course, the first thing that I saw was 'The Best Thing I Ever Ate' Cakes edition.  They were talking about the cakes they've had that they really liked.  Oh. Em. Gee.  Those cakes looked good.

Then I saw Unwrapped.  Not so big a deal there, except that made me want to grow a garden so I could can my own pickles lol (they had something on Gherkins). 

Diners, Drive-Ins & Dives on the other hand... a good Reuben sandwich.  Yum.  LOL it'd kill my stomach, so I'm not really tempted, but it looked so good.

I got my site done, other than rewriting the copy.  I need to start a page at a time.  I'll be adding pages and the like as well... and adding a cascading style sheet to be sure that all pages display the same.  I think I've got 2 different fonts right now.  Then I redo two of the other sites and finish my brother's site.  I've got my hands full, but I love it.  I just need to focus on decluttering as well to make moving easier.

Anyway, the menus change up come Monday and I'm looking forward to it already.  This part of the phase hasn't opened my eyes like it has others... I sometimes forget to eat.  It has made it easier for me to run around getting the kittie girl to t-ball, which she loves.

Laterness & g'night.

My give a damn's busted

I'm so over the drama at work its not funny. I'm sick of the whole situation. I think its just the complaints about 'mistakes' on the paperwork done by the guy who left when I'm the one who reviewed it and it was all correct. But they have to complain about something... And this is convenient because he's not here to defend himself. That's how at least one of them handles things. I'm sure she'll say the same of me once I'm gone. Whatever.

I had to laugh, I asked for suggestions on rewards for hitting 50 lbs gone. One person suggested Ben & Jerry's. Someone I went to high school with pointed out I want to lose weight not gain it back. I'm curious what his response will be since he tends to be .. over the top. If it gets too bad, I'll just remove him from my friends list. I just need to watch what I say to him because I know more than he knows I do... and I don't want to let him know.

I noticed this morning that my post from Wednesday evening disappeared. I assume that's partly because blogger was down last night. No worries. Its not like its a big deal since I post for me.

I will say I'm not crazy about the Breakstone cottage cheese singles I bought. Maybe my tastes are just changing.

I'm a bit hungry but have some of my lunch left to eat.

I'm getting sick of fighting with Justin about who gets to sleep past 6:30 or 7. Now that he's working I have to get up every time. Guess I just need to adjust. At least they don't get up as early as my Marine did and with him, I was the only one there to get up with him. I am just sick of dealing with how cranky Justin is a lot of times and he has no excuse for it.

I fell in to a burning ring of fire

I'm starting to freak a bit. I'm feeling naked and vulnerable. I can't figure out if it's that I have so much to do to be able and ready to move or if it's because the scale said 200.4 lbs this morning. It may be both.

I do know I'm feeling overwhelmed both at home and at work. Justin hasn't been helping out with cleaning the house or numerous other things that need doing other than cooking and taking care of the kids. I know he's sore but when I'm running around until 8 pm with t-ball and other things I get frustrated.

As for work, I have too much and that's not going to change no matter how much my boss says 'keep your chin up, its only temporary.' Bullshit.

Ok I need a day off, I'd love to be able to spend the day with the kids... Maybe Friday. Of course Justin has the day off so I'd be expected to run around. I've got too much to do!

You say it best when you say nothing at

All...

As if it's not obvious, I listen to a lot of country, but I think there was a non-country version at one time...

I'm thinking this is the last one of Allan's challenges I'm going to participate in. I will be merely overweight instead of obese and though I may have at least 30 lbs to lose, to be sure I keep it off, I'm going to have to find my own balance so I can keep the weight off. Though the stated goal for me is 175 by Aug 1, I think I'm going to try to aim for below 170. My sister in law is getting married Aug 20, and I want to be in the 160's by then.

Instead of taking 6 tsp of the liquid vitamin, I took 2 tsp and I think I may be able to keep that up. I think I'm reacting because liquid vitamins are better absorbed by the body. The pills aren't always absorbed - instead they can make it right through your system without being dissolved. I may wait a week and go up to 3 tsp.

Anyway - gettin' paid by the hour and older by the minute - I'd best get back to work. My site is about done, I just need to work on the copy :)