June 21, Changes

I've been praying really hard.  There's a house up the street that we've been interested in.  It needs a lot of work, but they only want $12k for it.  We only had a bit over half that amount saved (we don't pay rent while living with his grandparents).  Since she wanted cash, we had planned to just keep saving until we could buy it out right.  Today, Justin's aunt told us to call the owner, that she had gotten another offer on the house. 

To make a long(er) story short, we arranged payments, we give her what we have saved, and pay $530 a month for the next year, and it'll be paid off.  In the meantime, we can start cleaning it out and making it actually habitable.  It has about an acre yard, and even if we put $20k into fixing it up, the house would have only cost us about $30k.  Not bad at all.

I went way over on calories today.  Even if I had stuck with the 650 calories that I've been getting before dinner, I'd probably be over.  But instead, I had about half a cheesecake today.  Maybe more.  Being conscious of what I was eating meant I kept my calories to 2,000 or so. 

It's time for sleep, it's been a long week.  Laterness & g'night.

June 19, Calorie bank results

I've been aiming for 1200 calories a day, but the last couple of days have been at 1400 calories.  I'm trying to decide on whether I'm going to consider that a success or not.  I think I'm going to wait and see what the scale says on Sunday.  If I lose at 1400 calories, fine.  If not, then I'll need to adjust my plan.

In the meantime, my stomach keeps growling.  It's going to take some getting used to.

I did 2 walks yesterday, but only 1 walk and 1 stroll today (I went to the library, just didn't walk very fast). 

I got 3+ liters of water today, and no soda, which is a big thing for me.  I've found that I can lose or gain 3 lbs in 2 days because of diet sodas.  It's all water weight, but still. 

Otherwise, I'm doing okay.  I'm just exhausted, so I need to get to bed early (or at least earlier than normal).

I've got a bit of writing to do, then I'm headed to bed.

Laterness & g'night.

June 13, Tears and laughter

Well, more tears tonight.  Hubby started at his new job, so things are going well.  I'm just down in the dumps tonight, and weepy. 

Food was at about 1400 calories.  I am hungry right now, but don't have any more calories for the day.  I'll be fine.

Water was good, I drank more than the 3 liters I've been aiming for.

Walk was good too.  Tomorrow I'm going to exercise on the treadmill.

Short post tonight, I need to sleep.  Laterness & g'night.

June 12, A week of blah

I know I didn't post a lot last week.  On the 3rd, my mother went into the hospital for bronchitis.  She woke up for the 3rd time in a week unable to breathe, and they kept her over night.  I got frazzled about not being down there, and wishing I could help my sister handle the details of getting everyone everywhere.  It was a lot for her to handle on her own, since her partner was at work.

On the same day, I found out my Marine was moving from the big base he was stationed on to a smaller one.  They're closing bases down, and so he's there.  Being a typical momma, I worried.  I'm still a bit worried, but I've been talking to him fairly frequently through Facebook in the last couple of weeks.

Last Tuesday, a dear friend of mine died.  She had been suffering from cancer, and I say suffering in the broadest way.  She had been very sick, and the cancer spread to her brain and she was getting dizzy.  I'm so blessed to have known her, and met her when I drove to FL last summer.

Yesterday, the Health Coach from from the work clinic came into the office.  She brought a scale that measures more than simple weight or body fat percentage.  It gave the number of pounds of muscle, bone mass, and a scale for visceral fat.  It also gave my metabolic age (56!) and my BMR (1681 calories). 

My goal is to be down by 10 lbs by the time she comes back.  I've set my calorie range lower than the 1500 I was aiming for, because 1500 is too close to my BMR for me to lose much each week. 

Today, I hit 1196 calories.  Yesterday it was 1340.

Of course, the tuna kits I bought for the Marine have disappeared out of his box.  I'm going to have to buy him more.

In the meantime, water was good.  Food was good, and I got a 15 minute walk in.  All in all a successful day.  Which makes the 2nd successful day in a row.

On to tomorrow.  Laterness & g'night.

June 8

I think I put the wrong date yesterday.  At least I thought I posted yesterday.  *ETA** I just looked back, I put the wrong date yesterday lol.

Food wasn't so good today.  Someone brought donuts.  Hubby and I need to find a new place to eat lunch on Fridays, as I don't think that even the chicken quesadilla where we go is very healthy.  Of course, it could be worse, he ordered onion rings, and fries, with a grilled chicken sandwich that was at least 8 oz of chicken breast.

I'm not feeling so well tonight, all the crap food, and eating too much.  So I'm going to head to bed early.

I'm tired anyway.  Laterness & g'night.

June 6

It's been a long week.  I'm just glad tomorrow is Friday. 

Food has been high, but still under 2,000 calories most days.  I am starting again tomorrow, keeping my calories under 1500.  I'm sabotaging myself.

Water has been okay, and I've been for a walk every day this week.

Mom was in the hospital on Sunday, and I found out my Marine is moving to another base (hence, I binged on frozen yogurt on Sunday). 

Tonight, I'm tired, so I think I'm going to bed early.  The anti-depressant meds are helping me some, but really will take at least another week before they kick in.

I had about 1700 calories today.  Which has been my average for the last 3 days.

Tomorrow I start over, doing this right.  1500 calories, calculated as often as I can so I don't go over.

Until then, it's time for bed.  Laterness & g'night.

June 1

The urge to move has gotten so strong today that it's all I can think about.  I just don't know where to look for a place.  The rental market here in town is horrid.  There are few homes for rent.  There are homes for sale, but our credit isn't good enough to get a loan...

Add in, the doctor's office has decided (again) that my thyroid isn't off enough to be on thyroid medication.  Uhh ??? how the heck can it go back and forth? And of course, since I went in for something else, and she said that the thyroid being off can affect this other thing, then I'm feeling totally frustrated and ready to cry.

Maybe I'm just emotional with wanting my own place.

Calories today about 1400.  Higher than I planned, but I didn't think the lasagna for dinner was as many calories as it was.

Water - over 100 oz.  Exercise, a walk around the block this morning.

So far, so good.  My weight this morning was 204.4, which is lower than it's been in a couple of weeks.

And I can't seem to care.  I know I'm just depressed, and that the Zoloft in the other room will help.  So will spending the day at the library or somewhere else.

Laterness & g'night.