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Tuesday, May 31, 2011

There's booze in the blender, and soon

It will render, that frozen concoction that helps me hold on.

At least the damage to my savings wasn't as bad as I feared, and Justin agreed to the arrangement where we clear out his account other than what he needs for the week. I'm feeling better, my gas bill and car insurance are paid. Its funny how that's a load off my mind.

The home my sister found for us isn't one we're going to look into any further. Rent on it is too high, so we'll have to start over looking for something. Oh well :(

Ups and downs

Ugh. So we went out of town this weekend. It was nice to see some of Justin's family, and the kids mostly had fun. Well, except when we went downstairs at the relative's house. Then all I heard was 'scared downstairs' from the boy. He didn't like that the alarm talked when anyone opened a door. I'm sure it was because the finished basement was really cluttered too. But they didn't want to leave.

Of course I woke up with cotton mouth today. I tried to keep my water intake up during the trip but it was hard. I'll make it up this week.

Then there's the time I was coming back from a half price/used bookstore and the car overheated. Yea. That was tons of fun. Sitting on the side of an interstate road with 2 windows down (the only 2 windows that would roll down) in the heat with a 2 year old, hoping the motor wasn't trashed because I didn't notice the needle on the temperature gauge was all the way in the red until it had been there at least a couple of minutes. It wasn't the cheapest thing to fixed, but it wasn't bad. It just seems our luck is not the best a lot of the time.

I woke this morning with a song from church going 'round in my mind. I don't remember the song now but think it'll come back eventually. I'm stressing about money and am trying to just remember that it'll work out, I just need to start controlling Justin's spending more than I have been. It'll work out. It'll be tight but we make enough.

Water is half done. Breakfast was Egg Beaters on a 100 calorie multi-grain English muffin. Lunch is a sandwich, a glass of milk and some cucumber, dinner is spaghetti and a salad. I'll have an apple for a snack at some point. The girl has a t-ball game tonight. It should be interesting since both games were rained out last week.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Weigh in Sunday

I know I need to weigh in since I forgot last weekend.  But I don't have access to my scales this morning, and won't until a weekday morning.  I don't do an official weigh in on weekdays because I don't have more than 20 minutes after I take my thyroid medication before I have to get dressed.  So it's going to be a week.  No worries, from the sneak peek that I had on Friday morning, it'll be good when I weigh.

This weekend is challenging, but I'll get through it.  So far, I've been watching what I eat, and avoiding the brownies that Justin's sister made.  I know I went to bed hungry last night, and that was on purpose.  I will be glad when I can get to where I can control my food again.  I'm tempted to go to Price Chopper and at least pick up a few things..

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Growing up

I forgot how fast kids grow up. My daughter turned 6 in April. It doesn't seem possible. Yet she's acting more responsible, like an older child and less like the headstrong toddler I remember her to be. I've been very careful to talk to her like I did my oldest, yet trying to think of the things I was told as a child that simply weren't true. Like my hair was too thick. I also make it a point to tell her she's not fat, and she's beautiful, which are both true as well.

I never liked my hair but now it's much thinner. I'm not sure if it's the thyroid problem, which I know causes hair loss, or stress or my eating habits over the last few weeks. It seems my hair has been falling out faster over the last few weeks. I'm going to focus on the fruits, veggies and whole grains I should be getting. In the meantime, I've switched back to my pill vitamins and am taking the supplements I need. If the hair loss keeps up, I'll focus on getting more magnesium and zinc either in supplement form or through food.

Breakfast today was a breakfast burrito with about 3 tbsp of egg/turkey sausage. Total calories about 350 with the whole wheat soft taco sized tortilla and the non-dairy creamer in my coffee. I'm on my 3rd 16 oz bottle of water and lunch was a lazy 240 calories - 2 Nutra-Grain cereal bars, each 120 calories and 3 grams of fiber.

I'll put all the food into SparkPeople when I get a chance, but I already know I need more fruits and veggies today. I'll make sure to get some for dinner and snack. 1 tbsp of salsa isn't enough.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Hunger Games

I saw something on MSN about a movie called The Hunger Games, so I had to get the book out from the library.  Except all I could get was the book on CD.  I'm over halfway through the CD's (7 of 9) and I am going to go on a hunt for the actual book.  I found a 2nd book by this author about the same person in this book, but wanted to wait to get it until after I get the first book.

I talked to my doctor about the next part of Phase 6, and she wasn't happy about it, so I emailed Allan I'm out.  I need to be sure that I don't get lazy and keep at the weight loss.  I've got an appointment to talk to the corporate dietitian at work.  She and I emailed a few times this afternoon.  I'll go over some things with her next week.  She's also talked to me about increasing my exercise.  She may not be a fitness instructor, but she's worked with one, and I know that person too she works at one of the local gyms now instead of working as a nutrition analyst with my company.  I'll find a way to get at least a one month membership at the gym.  They have a discount with my work.

So, my goals for the next 2 months: ~1200 calories a day and at least 30 minutes of exercise a day at first.  Eventually I need to increase to 60 minutes, maybe adding morning and afternoon walks at work.  I was also told I needed to add weight exercises to help me burn more calories.  One of the other dietitians told me I need to shake up my exercise routine too.  I think after my talk with the dietitian, I'll have a full plan.  But til then, I have something tentative.  I need to buy some V-8 singles too until I get better quality veggies from the store.

I feel marginally better working personally with someone to get a plan tailored to me.  I'm not going to let myself slide back over 200 lbs.  Laterness & g'night.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Do I creep you out?

Weird Al today cuz I'm a bit creeped out myself.

My supervisor forwarded an email she got referring to someone's FaceBook page (link to come when I get home). Apparently the guy who hit on me on Monday has been talking to women around town. He asks their names, etc., but goes away if they say they're married. Yea so he wasn't really hitting on me. But I'm still creeped out and will have to be sure I'm way more aware of my surroundings for awhile. I've gotten lazy about it living here.

And they found the missing 3 year old from Tuesday's storms. He was found in a lake/pond. I feel so bad for the mom, she did everything right but her 16 month old and 3 year old died because of the storms. She's pregnant and the baby is okay but she and her 5 year old are both in critical condition the last I heard. Hug your loved ones and be thankful.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Give me two pina coladas gotta have one for each hand

My plan had been to go to bed early tonight.  I'm still up and it's late.  I had to rewrite the article from last night, then email the customer because they wanted me to do something that I couldn't do because of how the system works.  Someone has to adjust the required keywords so I can make the rest of the changes they wanted made.

Justin wants to go to Kansas City this weekend since it's a 3-day weekend.  It really sounds like fun, and I need the time away.  I'm just not sure about eating while there.  His aunt and uncle say they want to lose weight, but they're not willing to actually change anything.  Of course, I'd have to figure out something for my weigh in as well since I don't want to change scales.  I've already told Justin to set things up.

Anyway, everything was on plan today, and I got plenty of water.  I walked to the library at lunch and got a few books.  All in all, it was another good day, but now I must sleep.  Laterness & g'night.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Down time

Nothing much on TV tonight.  The shows I usually watch aren't on the air because of the storm.  We dodged the bullet yesterday.  Today, a number of tornadoes touched down in Oklahoma.  There are confirmed deaths, that's about all I know.  I heard on the radio that some were trying to weather out the storm at an RV park, but after the tornado went through, there were trailers in the trees near Canton Lake.  Another tornado touched down near El Reno, and a number of homes were destroyed.  My heart aches for those who were affected by the storms.  We were under a tornado warning, but they never even touched the county I live in.  Justin was sent home early.  We had to pick the kids up early from daycare.  All we got was more rain.  Don't get me wrong, I'm glad enough that the storms missed us, but my thoughts are with those who were affected.

I ended the on plan.  Walking, water all where it should have been. I want more water, I'm just really thirsty tonight.

I also need to finish Justin's breakfasts for the week.  I was supposed to do it Sunday but was too tired after t-ball.  Yesterday, I started to, but Justin had finished all of the cheese and I had planned breakfast burritos for his breakfasts.  I actually didn't have to rock the duckie boy tonight.  We've been working on getting him to sleep in his own bed, and tonight we put him in his own bed to fall asleep.  He wasn't happy and started going to his sister's bed to play, but got caught at that.

If I'm going to get my stuff done, I'd better start.  It's getting late, and I've got some writing to do too.  My goal is 1 article a day.  Laterness & g'night.

It was long ago and it was far away

I decided I'm going to walk on the treadmill today instead of outside. I still haven't heard if t-ball is cancelled tho we're still under a severe weather warning. My sister is freaking but it'll all work out.

Food on plan so far. I'm walking now because my goal is to increase my exercise this week. Should be fun right? I didn't want to but this is for life.

Monday, May 23, 2011

The animals, they came on, they came on by twosies twosies

LOL so here's to going to a Church of the Nazarene growing up.  If you've heard the song, good luck getting it out of your head.  It's always been an ear-worm for me.  One of those songs you hear and they keep going 'round and 'round.
The Lord said to Noah
you're gonna build an arky arky
Lord said to Noah
you're gonna build an arky arky
Build it out of (clap)
gopher barky barky
Children of the Lord.
 More flooding tonight.  We dodged the tornado bullet, though we were under a tornado warning and the sirens even went off because they saw funnel clouds about a mile south of my house.  Luckily, those funnel clouds didn't touch the ground.  Unfortunately, some did touch the ground about 15 miles east of us.  It rained so hard that the water was at least 4 inches along the side of one of the major roads through town, and all the way across the road at one of the intersections.

Food was on plan today, and I got my walk in.  I'm watching an HBO special on 'Too Big to Fail.'  It's got a lot of information I didn't know, and Justin saw enough of it that he understands what happened more than he did.  A dear friend of mine worked for Wachovia, which is now owned by Wells Fargo.  He's still there.  He's actually been able to identify with a lot of what I've gone through with the merger at work, which makes it nice to be able to vent to someone.  Justin has no clue still.

I told Justin about the guy that hit on me on my walk today.  When I said that the guy said 'lucky guy,' Justin said 'try living with her for a bit.'  Yea, that makes me feel so good :\  Some days I wonder if he really thinks what he says.  He says he's just joking, but sometimes the joking is a bit hurtful, or at least hurtful to me.  I've tried telling him, but he doesn't get it and just laughs it off.

Now I am watching Star Trek:TNG.  I've seen all of these episodes, but I find it relaxing to watch it still.  It's hard to believe how young everyone looks back then.  I'm feeling old tonight.  Thinking it's time to get some stuff done.  Laterness & g'night.

Monday, Monday it can't be that bad...

I really don't want to be at work. I think its time to put on my headphones and just focus on getting through the week. We have a 3-day weekend coming up. I don't think I can take Friday off because there are already 2 gone and only 5 total in the office since they only got approval last week to replace the person who left on May 6.

We're under a severe weather threat for the next few days. I hope it holds off so the girl still has t-ball.

I tried to use my belt on Saturday but its at least 2" too big. I'm going to try to punch holes in it for now.

I am starting to get a bit frustrated with bloggie drama. Its almost like hearing my kids 'you can't play with me if you play with them, they're poopyheads'. Whatever. I know me saying that isn't going to go over well but geesh. Support is support - more is better, regardless. And its making me take a closer look at the situation and I need to do some major evaluating on what I want.

OMG I just had to grin. I walked to pay my car payment and on the way back some guy started hitting on me. Its been ages since that happened. He asked if I was single and when I said no, he said 'lucky guy.'. I just had to agree LOL

Time to eat then get back at it.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

The news is...

bad.  I wasn't feeling well last night and took a nap.  Of course, my brother called while I was sleeping and since my phone was still on vibrate from work so no one answered it.  I got his voicemail when I called back, and never heard anything last night.  I called again this evening.

He said it looks like I didn't pass the checks for the job he offered me.  I had to pass a financial background check, and my credit score is very bad.  I understand why the credit check, I'd be bringing food to the vending machines in federal prisons, and they'd want to make sure I didn't need a lot of money so I couldn't be bribed.  I couldn't be no matter how much money I owed, but they don't know that.  They don't know me.

So my goal is to pay off the rest of what's on my credit report.  It's half of what was there last year.  Ideally, I'd like to pay in full before the beginning of August, but that'd require that I more than triple my income.  I guess we'll just have to see what I can do.

On the brighter side, my sister found a place for us to live.  There's a for-rent sign outside of a modular home about 3 miles from where she lives (my mother's moving about 5 houses down the street).  So, we wait until t-ball is done, then we go down there.  I'll still be there by my sister's birthday.  I'm just really disappointed about not being able to be approved to help my brother.

Anyway, I guess that gives me more time to ship off the games my Marine said he still wants.  I'll have to send them via UPS or something.  It's time to buckle down and focus on what's important.  I want to improve my credit score anyway, so I guess I see what I can do.  I also need to start sending my books to my mother so I don't have to try to transport them when we move. 

Food was on plan.  I've got a ton of stuff I need to get with coupons tomorrow.  I need to go grocery shopping as well.  So... it'll all work out, I'm just going to spend a bit more than I really want for things I wouldn't normally get but we really need.  Like contact solution and Little Swimmers (my sister has a pool, so does my parents' new home).  I forgot what else I need to get, but I also need to go through my stockpile and give a lot of it to the YWCA.

Of course, I go to log into my blog today and notice that the big long post I started last night didn't go through.  It was sitting in the drafts!  Oops.  It's now Sunday, so I'll post later today.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

A king size tub big enough for 10 +me

We all just wanna be big rockstars ;)

My weight was up even more this morning so I just have to laugh about it and get over myself. If I don't laugh I'll take the weigh in seriously and I know I'm eating on plan so its something else.

I really need to get some Mrs Dash or something. The spices I have in my cupboard are sparse and don't go on eggs no matter what Justin says - especially oregano & basil lol. I'll have to go through and figure out what's still good then organize my spice cabinet. About like everything else in the house.

I'm seriously reconsidering the yard sale thing. Itd be so much easier just leaving things at the thrift store. It'll depend on how much more stuff I have to get rid of.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

When is vacation time yet?

I had an article to do, but I think I'm going to release it unless I can get it done before it gets too late.  I'm so tired I can barely keep my eyes open.  I finally decided to use one of Justin's heat patches (kinda like the Thermacare ones) as a heating pad on my lower abdomen.  I didn't pay all that much for the packages and I knew the heat would help my cramps.  Midol didn't touch them.  I really need to buy a real heating pad for times like this.  I had one of those ones that heats in the microwave, but it disappeared after my Marine borrowed it one time.  I didn't find it when I cleaned out his room after he left for boot camp.  There are a couple of other places I can look.

I wrote this earlier, and now don't have a child on my lap.  I'm going to write this article, it's time for me to get serious about preparing for when I move.  We are under a tornado watch right now, but it hasn't even started raining yet.  I'm watching one of the local channels that'll have an announcement if the weather gets worse.

I told my sister that even if I don't get approved for the job with my brother, I'll be there for her birthday in July.  I told her that if I don't have to be there by June 18, then I'll wait until the kittie girl is out of t-ball since she loves it so much.  No matter what, I'll be in Florida soon.

I did find my 'missing' post from last Wednesday in my drafts.  I don't know whether it'll show up as a post from today if I post it, so I'm just going to leave it.

Laterness & g'night.

I'm gonna keep on rollin', rollin'

Ugh. I'm getting so sick of eggs for breakfast and it's only been 3 days. Maybe getting some liquid eggs would help. Of course I'm getting even more sick of chocolate Carnation Instant Breakfast and sugar free fudgesicles.

And though I'm following the plan, my weight is up from Monday's weigh in. Of course, TOM has finally reared its head so that may be why.

Last night's game was entertaining. My kittie girl kept playing in the dirt when she was in the outfield. Lol

I have an errand to run at lunch so I guess I stop at home for lunch. Easier than trying to do it this morning...

Monday, May 16, 2011

Ending the evening with laughter

I still need to write at least one of those direct orders through Textbroker tonight, but my Marine called again tonight.  It was definitely more important to talk to him.  He's still down, but is feeling better than he did when he called a couple of weeks ago.  By the end of the call, he felt even better still.  That makes me happy, that I can talk to him and make him laugh.  I think it helps him to know that there are those of us around that care. 

I try not to tell him how much I miss him because he needs to be a grown up.  I might even be able to see him next month on my way to FL.  It means I get to meet his girlfriend, and she'd even get to meet the younger kids. 

The day went well otherwise.  I even got some walking outside while I was talking to my Marine... and he lectured me about quitting smoking.  LOL he knows me too well for being my son :)  I promised I'd quit by the time I move.  We talked some about how I regret that I was too heavy to do much with him, and I told him I've lost 45 lbs. 

All in all, a very good day.  Laterness & g'night.

Robin Williams - Gotta love him :)

I downloaded some Robin Williams comedy bits onto my MP3 player. I'm sure everyone is wondering why I'm laughing so hard.

Its kinda funny - every time I think I might drop out of the challenge, Justin convinces me to stay in. At least we're adding other food. It may take increasing my exercise to what its been to get my cycle back on track. With the much lower calorie intake I haven't felt up to doing as much exercise as I was doing.

People at work are aggravating me again. So damn impatient and jumping in before they know exactly what's going on.

I did get 2 direct orders through Textbroker. One customer really liked the last piece I wrote for their website, so they asked me to write the info for 2 more of their pages. That brought a smile to my face this morning. And last night I found that the copywriting job I'm interested in is still posted. Once I write both of those direct orders for Textbroker, I'll work more on my own site. I should be in the groove by then lol.

I may even try writing a short story for the Writer's digest competition. I have wanted to enter that for ages - since someone suggested it in a writing class I took in 2007. Maybe I'll just write down the dream I had the other night. It's not what I normally write unless I find a way to change it. Not that it's that hard to change any story to a sci/fantasy story LOL

I am hoping I hear from my brother today, even if its negative. If it is negative, I may wait until the end of June to move so the girl can finish t-ball. I hate pulling her out in the middle of the season. Their first game is tomorrow.

Anyway since its lunchtime, I think I'm going to work on my short story.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Sunday brings scratches on my legs

Well, not just Sunday.  More like the kittens bring scratches to my legs.  Last year, we couldn't afford to get out cat fixed, so we have 4 kittens.  This year, finances are MUCH better and she'll be fixed as soon as these are weaned. 

One of the kittens attacks my legs when I'm in the recliner.  Justin has been the object of her rather cruel affections lately since he was complaining that he never gets to sit in the recliner.  LOL it didn't change his mind about sitting here.

I had a pretty bad nightmare last night.  I'm not entirely sure what's up with that.  Dream interpretation websites say it means I'm getting over something or going through a tough time.  Or that I'm insecure about something.  Or that an aspect of my emotions has been cut off.  So obviously it can mean any number of things, but I had trouble getting back to sleep, and I was really upset even though I knew it was a dream.

The new phase has messed with my TOM and it looks like that's also affecting my weight loss.  I only lost 3 lbs this week, though I think once everything is straightened out, it'll end up that I lost more.  I may need to do some thinking though.  If it's messing with my cycle, it may be unhealthy for me to follow it.  Just because I got my doctor's okay doesn't mean it's the healthiest thing for me.  I'd feel more comfortable talking to one of the corporate dietitians.  Though they're no longer working as corporate dietitians, they are registered dietitians. 

Anyway, it's getting late and I've gotta start the early rising again.  Laterness & g'night.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

The moment I wake up, before I put on my makeup, I say a little prayer for you

Just finished watching My Best Friend's Wedding.  It's one of my favorite movies because it reminds me of an old boyfriend.  He really hurt me when he broke up with me for someone else.  He said at the time that this movie reminded him of us, but he didn't think I'd like it because the main character didn't 'get the guy.'  Of course, then the person he married broke his heart and he called me crying.  I truly believe that we get out of life what we put into it.  I also believe in karma of some sort or another.  If you're not honest, you'll eventually be found out.  That's just life.  That's why God says leave revenge up to Him.

Official weigh in is tomorrow for me, though Allan wants the weights Monday.  I'm just going to give him tomorrow's weight and leave it at that.  Of course, it'll skew my results a bit for the first week, but it'll all work out over the course of the phase.

I got aggravated with something I noticed about Justin today.  I had to get some clothes so I have something to wear to work other than just jeans.  We were at Ross and I had picked out some pants/capris, half of which were on clearance to try to go easy on the money.  Justin said he wanted some shirts.  It wasn't that he doesn't need the clothes so much as it just seems like every time I get clothes, he has to get clothes.  He gets clothes when he really needs them, then when he's with me when I need them.  Of course, this means that my reward for losing 50 lbs is clothes, not the tattoo I wanted to get.  Maybe I'll make the tattoo my reward when I hit 75 lbs gone... of course I'll probably need clothes then too.  I do have 3 pairs of jeans that I never managed to get into the last time I was close to 200 lbs.  I have 3 more pairs of jeans/pants in my closet that are a size smaller.  I did figure out that I was a size bigger than I always said I was.  The jeans I put on this morning are a size 18.  The size 20's are big on me.  There's no way that I really wore a size 20, it had to have been a 22.  Otherwise the sizes just don't compute.

Anyway, Justin is watching Sons of Anarchy, and it just doesn't interest me so I'm headed to bed.

Laterness & g'night.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Is Food Network a bad idea?

I wasn't thinking tonight.  Turned on Food Network because I just wasn't in the mood to watch either of the 2 Criminal Minds episodes that were on (one was on ION and one on A&E).  Of course, the first thing that I saw was 'The Best Thing I Ever Ate' Cakes edition.  They were talking about the cakes they've had that they really liked.  Oh. Em. Gee.  Those cakes looked good.

Then I saw Unwrapped.  Not so big a deal there, except that made me want to grow a garden so I could can my own pickles lol (they had something on Gherkins). 

Diners, Drive-Ins & Dives on the other hand... a good Reuben sandwich.  Yum.  LOL it'd kill my stomach, so I'm not really tempted, but it looked so good.

I got my site done, other than rewriting the copy.  I need to start a page at a time.  I'll be adding pages and the like as well... and adding a cascading style sheet to be sure that all pages display the same.  I think I've got 2 different fonts right now.  Then I redo two of the other sites and finish my brother's site.  I've got my hands full, but I love it.  I just need to focus on decluttering as well to make moving easier.

Anyway, the menus change up come Monday and I'm looking forward to it already.  This part of the phase hasn't opened my eyes like it has others... I sometimes forget to eat.  It has made it easier for me to run around getting the kittie girl to t-ball, which she loves.

Laterness & g'night.

My give a damn's busted

I'm so over the drama at work its not funny. I'm sick of the whole situation. I think its just the complaints about 'mistakes' on the paperwork done by the guy who left when I'm the one who reviewed it and it was all correct. But they have to complain about something... And this is convenient because he's not here to defend himself. That's how at least one of them handles things. I'm sure she'll say the same of me once I'm gone. Whatever.

I had to laugh, I asked for suggestions on rewards for hitting 50 lbs gone. One person suggested Ben & Jerry's. Someone I went to high school with pointed out I want to lose weight not gain it back. I'm curious what his response will be since he tends to be .. over the top. If it gets too bad, I'll just remove him from my friends list. I just need to watch what I say to him because I know more than he knows I do... and I don't want to let him know.

I noticed this morning that my post from Wednesday evening disappeared. I assume that's partly because blogger was down last night. No worries. Its not like its a big deal since I post for me.

I will say I'm not crazy about the Breakstone cottage cheese singles I bought. Maybe my tastes are just changing.

I'm a bit hungry but have some of my lunch left to eat.

I'm getting sick of fighting with Justin about who gets to sleep past 6:30 or 7. Now that he's working I have to get up every time. Guess I just need to adjust. At least they don't get up as early as my Marine did and with him, I was the only one there to get up with him. I am just sick of dealing with how cranky Justin is a lot of times and he has no excuse for it.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I fell in to a burning ring of fire

I'm starting to freak a bit. I'm feeling naked and vulnerable. I can't figure out if it's that I have so much to do to be able and ready to move or if it's because the scale said 200.4 lbs this morning. It may be both.

I do know I'm feeling overwhelmed both at home and at work. Justin hasn't been helping out with cleaning the house or numerous other things that need doing other than cooking and taking care of the kids. I know he's sore but when I'm running around until 8 pm with t-ball and other things I get frustrated.

As for work, I have too much and that's not going to change no matter how much my boss says 'keep your chin up, its only temporary.' Bullshit.

Ok I need a day off, I'd love to be able to spend the day with the kids... Maybe Friday. Of course Justin has the day off so I'd be expected to run around. I've got too much to do!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

You say it best when you say nothing at


As if it's not obvious, I listen to a lot of country, but I think there was a non-country version at one time...

I'm thinking this is the last one of Allan's challenges I'm going to participate in. I will be merely overweight instead of obese and though I may have at least 30 lbs to lose, to be sure I keep it off, I'm going to have to find my own balance so I can keep the weight off. Though the stated goal for me is 175 by Aug 1, I think I'm going to try to aim for below 170. My sister in law is getting married Aug 20, and I want to be in the 160's by then.

Instead of taking 6 tsp of the liquid vitamin, I took 2 tsp and I think I may be able to keep that up. I think I'm reacting because liquid vitamins are better absorbed by the body. The pills aren't always absorbed - instead they can make it right through your system without being dissolved. I may wait a week and go up to 3 tsp.

Anyway - gettin' paid by the hour and older by the minute - I'd best get back to work. My site is about done, I just need to work on the copy :)

Monday, May 9, 2011


I got permission from the doctor. She said with just taking thyroid medicine it wasn't a problem. OTOH if I were diabetic... She and I talked about Justin a bit. She did suggest taking a single dose of the vitamin and wait a bit before taking another... I emailed Allan about it and everything is set.

Things I've learned so far today:
1) The freezer part of the fridge in our office doesn't work
2) Carnation Instant Breakfast hasn't changed in 25 years (when I broke my jaw)

Otherwise things are flowing along though my tummy has been unhappy since the vitamin incident :P

Phase 6

I went ahead and started phase 6 this morning but have an appointment at the clinic at 11:15 to have a doctor look at it and approve it for me to follow. I'm going to show her the vitamins I got as well, as I had a reaction to them this morning. Within 5 minutes I was feeling ill then my arms and face started tingling. My face and arms were very red & flushed. Almost an hour later my arms are still tingling and though I'm not as flushed as I was, I'm still looking pink. Unfortunately they couldn't move my appointment up, I tried. I did take an allergy pill hoping it'd help.

I'm not sure what to do about the vitamins, I've never had such a reaction, and they were the only ones I could find at Walgreens that fit the requirement...

The back of my neck is feeling cold, I suspect its no longer flushed. I think I'm going to make some tea. I've had the breakfast and am not hungry, but I want a soda. I'm still a bit freaked about the reaction I had to the vitamins.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Day 134? Sunday

I'm a bit nervous about tomorrow.  For me, I know food is an emotional crutch.  Now I'm not going to be able to use it as such.  I know my relationship with food is unhealthy, and I know I need to break it, but I'm scared.  I forgot to ask Allan if gum was okay.  From the looks of the plan, I'm going to need gum.

I recently started a tic I used to do when I was younger.  Summers were difficult for me growing up.  It wasn't the farm so much, so much as other things that happened.  Add in that my ex was abusive.  I thought I had put it in the past, but now I'm not so sure.  Justin said something about being upset that I was losing my butt as my weight has dropped.  I know he was only half serious.  I told him I wasn't stopping with the weight loss, so he was going to have to deal with it, but it hurt.  My ex was the exact opposite, he was always after me to lose weight, saying I was a cow even when I was only overweight and not actually obese.  Of course, he started when I was pregnant with my Marine.

I want a cigarette.

That's the tic I started again.  I'm fighting to keep myself from really smoking a lot.  I've kept it to 1 - 3 a day, I should quit again.  I have no reason to smoke, I'm not under the stress I was under before.  My only issues are emotional.  I'm also trying to hide it from my Marine and my sister, they'd both lecture me about smoking.  I know the dangers.  I'm focusing on one bad habit at a time.  Actually, maybe I'm trying to change more than one bad habit at a time since I'm trying to work on my procrastination and self confidence as well.  I keep having to remind myself that I'm worth all the effort.

I've got my site design finished and I love how it looks.  Tomorrow night, I'll split it up and get the page ready.  I need to spend some time writing the copy, and I think that it'd be something to actually do at lunch.

Laterness & g'night.

Shake, shake, shake

LOL you gotta love it.  Justin told the duckie boy that he needs to hurry up and get bigger so he can start doing chores around the house.  Duckie boy just looked at him then started dancing and saying 'shake body, shake body' lol.  I so need to find a pocket camera that also does video and carry the thing around with me.  He's just so adorable, and he melts my heart every morning when I drop him off at daycare and he wraps his arms around my neck and says 'sad, miss you.'  My son is a master manipulator.  So was his big brother, so I guess I shouldn't be surprised. 

I was very happy this morning when I weighed in.  202.4 lbs, which is 2.8 lbs down from last Sunday.  I'm now over 40 lbs down since Christmas.  Not quite halfway to my goal, but I'm feeling so good about it. 

Justin's working on the muffler on the car, and I'm a bit antsy because I've got errands to run.  I can't drive it right away, so I'm going to have to take the truck to get money for the daycare and Pull-Ups and gas money.  Ugh.  I'm leaving the kids home with him to make it easier for me to do everything.  The truck isn't something I like driving much.  We've got a few more repairs to do on it before I feel comfortable driving it.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Day 133 - Where'd it go?

For some reason, I don't remember not posting yesterday, but there's no post.  I think my mind is going.  Can I blame old age?  LOL

I'm not even sure I've got the correct day.  I need to check the Julian date on the calendar Monday at work.

I picked up all the stuff I need for Monday, and I can already tell I'm not going to be happy.  Walmart only had one flavor of one of the Sugar Free things I needed.  I know I absolutely detested the full sugar version when I had it when I was 14/15.  It'll be interesting to see if it's changed in 25 years.

Otherwise, I just ended up putting the stuff I needed in the cart muttering about the prices I had to pay because I didn't remember to look for coupons.  Hopefully I'll remember Friday to make the prices a bit less painful.  I'm just glad we're both working now, all I bought was enough to get me through until Friday, and some heavenly smelling cinnamon vanilla coffee.  I wanted a dark roast, but they didn't have any :(

Everything was on plan today.  I'm exhausted, I've been up for almost 18 hours, so I'm off to beddie bye land where my legs don't hurt and I can sleep in in my dreams... not have a 2 year old keep saying 'momma, day time' when I'm trying to catch a few more zz's.  It'll be interesting to see if Justin remembers that I asked him to let me sleep at least until 7:30, and that tomorrow's Mother's day.

Laterness & g'night.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Day 131 - Cheat Days LOL

Justin forgot all about my birthday until he got the mail tonight and saw the cards.  Hmmm... he even has a calendar on the front screen of his phone.  LOL Oh well.  Then he wanted to go out to dinner (my choice) and kept telling me that my diet didn't matter today.  So to be boring, I ate what I was supposed to for dinner.  LOL

I got a call from my Marine, from my nephew while I was on the phone with my Marine, and from my mom, who is raising my nephew.  LOL She didn't know he had called.  We talked a bit and I promised to pull my credit report to figure out if I'm going to have a problem with that job.  It really doesn't look like it to me. 

We got the part to the car.  I ordered it on eBay.  I need to leave feedback for the seller now.  I just wanted to get the part and make sure it was the right one.  I ordered a part for my other laptop on eBay once and ended up with the same part for a different model laptop.  Not even an HP, which is what I was using at the time.  Speaking of which, I really need to get the parts for that laptop because I have a lot of valuable stuff on it.

I've got a lot of work to get done this weekend.  I'm almost wishing I could leave early tomorrow, but since it's my coworker's last day, I won't.  I'm just going to have to do 15 minutes at a time until I get everything done I want to get done.

Laterness & g'night.  (and, Jacqui, thanks for the birthday wishes :))

Feelin' the love

If the signs all over saying I'm 40 and the black decorations around my desk weren't enough, my Facebook wall is filled with birthday wishes. I feel loved... Though I haven't gotten a birthday wish from Justin, one of my closest friends from high school, or another dear friend... Not a big deal. The two groups I'm still in contact with from eDiets haven't said anything either but I know the thought is there :) I am truly blessed to have the friends I do, even if I haven't met 3/4 of them.

Food is on plan today. Another day where treats were brought in - pineapple and strawberry parfait with yogurt. I'm not having any.

I'm over half done my water already.

Birthday wishes

So this is what I came in to this morning. Do you think they're trying to imply I'm old? LOL

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Day 130 - FBI Shootout in OK?

There was just a news brief/advertisement for tonight's 10 o'clock news, and it said something about a shootout in OKC.  Definitely something to wonder about.  I'm not staying up until that late.  I've got a pounding headache and my hips and thighs have been bothering me most of the day.  I walked, hoping it'd make me feel better but it didn't really help.  I'll get through it, I just figure more sleep might help.

I finished the day on plan, even walking/jogging like I was supposed to, though it hurt like heck.  I am craving something, I'm not sure what.  I ate my mid-afternoon snack just a bit ago and I'll be fine.  I'm on the fence about emailing Allan that I'm in for Phase 6, I want to do it, but ...

Time for sleep.  Laterness & g'night.

Sour grapes and Focus makes me fabulous

I had to put on my MP3 of the Flylady to focus. I'm just easily distracted today. I've got way too much to do at home and at work.

As for the sour grapes that's my attitude today. My manager hasn't gotten 'approval' to hire to replace the person leaving Friday. That shows how much they give a damn - not at all.

It just makes me even more eager to take the job my brother has waiting.


I'm not entirely sure what day it is but no song lyrics title today. I'm in the waiting room at the clinic waiting for them to draw blood to test my thyroid again. The music here has no lyrics and I didn't bring my MP3 player. Since my appointment was made at the last minute, I may be here awhile.

The girls at work are talking about doing a mile walk 3x a week at lunch. I'm not sure if I want to join them or keep at it on the treadmill or in the evening at the park. Some of them just walk too fast and others too slow. I like to set my own pace.

So far everything is on plan with food but its only snack time. I already know there's going to be a problem with the district manager of the paper route we were doing. He replaced all the locks and left them on our doorstep. Like we have the time to mess with the boxes. Whatever.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011


I got a call from my brother tonight.  I had to LOL, he wished me a happy birthday.  I reminded him that he was early, so then he told me why he really called.  I have a job in FL, at least a part time one if I can pass the background/financial check.  I know I'll pass the background check with flying colors, I worked for the Sheriff's office in KCK (Kansas City, KS).  I'm a bit concerned about the financial part of the background check because I know my credit isn't very good.  I'm not sure where they draw the line on what's acceptable, so I just told my brother that we'd put in the information and see what comes of it.  If I pass, the training classes (on what not to do in Federal prisons) start sometime in June.  Which means I may end up moving with the kids before Justin can move down there.  I'm not crazy about that, but we do what we have to.  Who am I to complain about a job waiting for me?

I'm so shaking tonight.  Again.  I was shaking when I got the tax return deposited.  It's getting closer and more real and I'm so excited.

I also got the job application written for a copywriting job.  I know that this job would be a stretch, but I can do it and it's what I want to do.  I just want to edit the application, then I'll send it.

Everything on plan tonight, and I want to get to sleep early.  Laterness & g'night.

walking through it

Since I was getting cold and sleepy I decided on a 10 minute walk before I ate lunch. When I got to the basement I saw the bane of my existance - LOL not really - one of the plant managers that likes to push us to do what he wants whether or not its in the regs. One of my coworkers likes to tease me because I deal better with this person than others in the department do.

Ok that's a convoluted sentence.

I'm actually feeling really good, though my weight was up this morning. I suspect it was a phantom gain and all will be fine on Sunday. I need to take a final picture of the outfit I used for my comparison pictures. The pants were really baggy on Sunday. That kinda sux but its good at the same time. I did have to laugh when I was watching What Not To Wear this weekend. Stacey said you should go down a size for every 15 lbs you lose but its just not working that way for me. I'm borderline with the next size down so it'll happen eventually.

If grace were an ocean we're all sinking

I seem to be getting the hang of getting both kids ready on time. The kittie girl sure moves a lot slower than my Marine did. I have to do everything for the duckie boy still so no real comparison there.

Of course in other ways my younger 2 are easier and harder than their older brother. He was a handful but there was only one of him. They're both a bit spoiled because they were home with daddy for 2 years.

Meals are on plan though I think I want a walk outside this afternoon. The water is going down faster every day.

I'm going to have to get serious about doing Flylady at home because Justin doesn't do chores around the house when he works. Kinda t's me off but its always that he's too tired. It'll be easier on days when we don't have t-ball practice.

Anyway back at it.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Goals and more goals

More writing tonight.  My goal is to write at least one article a day.  Unfortunately, this isn't quite going to hit my goal of at least $42 by the 5th when I have to request a payout from Textbroker.  But if I keep up that number, I'll be further along in a month.

Exercise done for the day.  I ran back and forth at the ballpark while the kittie girl was practicing t-ball.  At first I was just walking, but then I started playing with the younger brother of one of the kittie girl's teammates.  He was walking on the other side of the fence and would run with me when I ran.  We were both giggling while we did it.  Food was on plan.  I do need to pick up a few things I've still forgotten, but otherwise it's all good.  We're almost out of pull-ups if you can believe it.  I forgot to buy any. 

Water wasn't as high as I've been, but still over 128 oz.  All in all it was a 3 star day other than not being able to figure out posting to facebook via text.  Doh.  I double posted.  Kinda like I do here sometimes.  Hehe.

Enjoyed writing my article today on foursquare.  Unfortunately, a copywriting business is not the type of business you'd advertise there.  Oh well.  It was still interesting.  I also don't like telling people I'm not at home.  It seems like an invitation to get robbed.  Unless you post that you have a big dog at home.  Nice pit-rottie mix ;) (Yes, I am joking, I'm not entirely sure that's a good mix to have).  Of course, I do it every day when I say I'm at work...

Time for bed.  Laterness & g'night.

We bad, we nationwide

ZZ Top just seems appropriate today.
I really don't see the big deal about Osama - IMHO Al Qaeda is like a hydra, cut off one head two will grow back. Hmm when I went to Google to look up how to spell Al Qaeda, I found an article stating that they had evolved into splinter groups long before this. I hate that I was right in this case :(

Someone brought cookies today - DO NOT WANT. Blah. I've got my plan so no cookies. I want to see the 190's before June. Ideally I'd LOVE to see 199 by Thursday but that won't happen LOL.

Anyway the weather sux so the plan is the treadmill in 20 mins or so. I'm already halfway done my water so the day is off to a good start. Gotta get back at it.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Hair color and more

Only down another 1.8 lbs this week. I expected more but I'm missing sleep today because the duckie boy didn't want to sleep. I'm really not going to lose another 5 lbs this week but I'll bet I at least hit 40 lbs gone by then. I need to get a bit from the moving fund because the boy needs clothes. Most of his pants are too short and he doesn't have many shorts.

I'm coloring my hair today, I'm sick of seeing the roots growing in. I bought the color a couple of months ago on sale. I also have some sale stuff I need to pick up today. TP and razors are at a great price at Walgreens with coupon.

I've got 4 nights to make another $20 on Textbroker. I'd like to do more but nights like last night make it hard. If I can get Justin to deal with the kids I'll do what I used to - go in the kitchen, put on headphones and just power through it. It's not hard I just need to buckle down and do it.

I found another site I want to see if they have a daily email they send out. FreeLanceWritingGigs.com has a daily list of the writing jobs they find advertised on the Internet. I'm more interested in their grammar blog. Its no secret I need to do better at grammar.