So today I met the person they hired to do the job I've been doing. I'm still harboring a LOT of bitterness over the situation.
But tomorrow, I need to let go. I need to just relax and do what I'm told to do. I need to remember I still have a job. One that pays more than I was making, one that is a significant raise from when I quit last year.
It's not enough, but it's a start.
I'm trying to get some stuff done, so I can start focusing on the writing I'm supposed to be doing. I only foresee me staying at this job for another 4 years at most, unless I don't manage to find the time to start the writing business I really want. I want to be able to be home for the kids when they get off school. I want to be able to take the day to spend at the zoo, or at track and field day, or any other day that they'd like me to be there.
I want what I didn't get with the Marine, a chance to be home with my kids instead of working full time with as much overtime as I can get to be sure that I can make ends meet.
I sometimes wonder what it'd be like to be able to stay home with my kids without having to work. I have never been able to, the Marine's father told me I had to work, and once he and I were separated, I had no choice. $300 a month in child support wasn't enough to support us. Once I wasn't a single mother any more, I had to work because my hubby isn't earning enough to support us without my income as well. I was able to make enough to support us, but he hasn't been. We're hoping that's changed now that he has a job interview with the company I work for...
Anyway, food was at ~1500 calories (I came up with 1450), water was more than 1 liter/100 oz, and exercise was a gentle 15 minute walk. I forgot my sneakers so couldn't get on the treadmill.
Laterness & g'night.
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