Yea, as if it wasn't obvious, I'm very good at procrastinating on things I should be doing. My Marine's dad called me lazy, and sometimes it comes off as laziness. I find other things to do, I get easily distracted. I have a lot of things I should be doing. A lot I'm supposed to be doing, especially since I have always wanted to start my own web design company. I talk big, but never carry through.
The question is, why don't I carry through? I have done a lot of thinking on this lately. Why do I keep saying I want to start writing for About.com and never actually fill out the application? Why have I been dabbling in web design since I left my web developer job in Branson? Heck, I haven't even seriously designed anything in years. Not since 2007. I'm scared. I've been taking the easy road. I have some serious self-doubts about my abilities. Oh I say I was one of the best designers where I worked. I was the best programmer until they brought someone in who had a degree in programming. But, I honestly don't see myself as all that great at what I want to be doing. I was called worthless a lot during my first marriage. I guess I still harbor some of that doubt. My goal... after I finish the paperwork for the Oklahoman this weekend, I'm going to thoroughly design the site for SEOcopywritingdesign.com. The website I registered last summer. I'll write the copy as time allows throughout the next week. I have the abilities, I just need to set a goal and follow through. I will be downloading a copy of Photoshop, I found a few things that GIMP doesn't do very well at.
Food, on plan today. I didn't walk on the treadmill, but I walked in the mall tonight after Justin got home from collecting money from the stores for the papers. Water was a bit low, but overall I drank more than 126 oz of fluids. I just normally try for a gallon of water without counting anything else.
It's late and time for bed. Laterness & g'night.
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